Sometimes I get a little bit lost inside myself.
I feel overwhelmed by my fears, anxieties, and insecurities. I become consumed by my own thoughts and my mind won’t stop turning, turning, turning. I’m a mess, really.
I believe that God can change me. He can give my heart security, and I can rest in Him. I can give my fears to Him and not let fear rule my life. I believe it is possible, but how does it happen?
William Wilberforce said “The battle is won in the small things” and I believe that is very true. Why else would Solomon tell us to guard our hearts, and Paul tell us to “take every thought captive”? God places great gravity on the things that we think are too ordinary and too small to make any difference.
Each choice we make has the potential to bring our hearts and lives in closer accordance to how Christ designed for us to live. It is the small, everyday acts of courage that make us who we are.
It’s useless to try and sort out my entire life in one shot, because all I have is this moment, the moment I’m living in. All I truly ever have is a moment, and I am constantly presented with the choice of what to do with it. Will I allow Christ to own this moment and use it for His purposes, or will I take it and use it for mine?
I choose Christ. I choose bravery. I choose life, love, light, beauty, suffering, service, humility, and everything else that belongs with choosing Christ. As I choose to let Him rule my life, He works in and through me in a constant process of redemption.
“Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make.”
-Deuteronomy 30:19
Ruth Marie Paterson 
You write beautifully Ruth and God is doing a beautiful renovation of your heart! Thanks for sharing your gift!
Thank you Amy, I appreciate you taking the time to read it! You are such an encouragement and an inspiration to me, I hope your break is going well and I can’t wait to see you in a few days:)